Lost

The feeling of lost of someone that you know .. is really shitty feeling, Im kinda outta words, I guessing so far that is the best word best for me to tell how really I felt this few days.

Is been truely a quite rough/bumpy weeek(s) for me so far. Is like .. within such a short period of time, there is so many things happen at the same time, is way before u are able to react anything .. then u struck by something else .. in the end .. u kinda numb bout everything .. then only the after shock effect comes in ..

I really hate, that when I said .. I cried on someone's funeral .. and what I got back is ..

"there is nothing to cry .. he/she is back to heaven .. "

and I really hate to repeat .. and just cant someone realise that .. there is nothing to cry bout someone's death ? But what I crying was only 1 thing -- Lost of a best fren/fren .. Is there anything to do with religion ? Honestly .. I dun think so. Yeah, tho can meet the person back in heaven .. but how long will that be ??

I rest my case ...